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.Monday, August 31, 2009 ' 12:00 AM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted

i can see my blog is dead for a week or more...
'cause nothing to blog about.. :/
and also having a boring holiday somehow... ~_~

so anyway..
Its MERDEKA!!! 8D Yay~~~~~
*Wave the flag as hard as possible*

hahaha... LoLs =.="'
Happy 52nd Merdeka to Everyone~~~ *[]*V
Weeeeeeeeeeee~~ xP





.Sunday, August 23, 2009 ' 7:43 AM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted

以上的title
将会是我即将要
开始画的漫画。。

英语名将会是
"The Secret of the Death"

嘻嘻嘻。。。
名字取的还不错吧? (还好啦~~)
虽然还没正式开始画
但漫画的主人公我画的也
差不多有七七八八的了
所以呢。。唔。。。。
(想不到要说什么。。。 =.="')

那接下来就是漫画的纲要:
(故事内容我还没完全想好~。。。=.="')
========================================

以前。。人们都会认为死神是脸长头骨
一身骨髅身,拥有黑色斗篷以及一把镰刀的不祥的人物

但在21世纪里。。
这位来到人间的死神却和人们所想象的
可说是与众不同的了

这位死神并非面目狰狞,虽然身带有镰刀
但却是一位毫不吓人的大帅哥。。

他身穿黑西装,绑着黑领带,带着一对白手套,
跟着一把比人还高的镰刀
这就是死神"晴之天"的标准装束。

但晴天的工作并不是执行或审判
而是收割他人的灵魂,打开阴阳间的道路
然后指引他们该去的方向

至于执行与审判的部分是以他无关

晴天对人类没什么好感
但却非常喜欢音乐,认为音乐是人类最伟大的发明

对他来说,当干净利落地处理完工作后。。
变装成人类走进附近的CD商店,
戴上耳机聆听着音乐乃是至高无上的享受。。

晴天的工作地点是在一家医院
在这医院的日子很轻闲自在
当他没有工作的时候,他会
坐在医院的走廊上的长椅子上
静静地看着来来往往的人类

他在这家医院里也有如空气般一样
平时除了临死前或死期快到的人类以外
普通的凡人是看不见他的

在人间当死神的他常常碰到下雨天
使得他也有只能低声叹气。。

他呆在人间的时间比平常的死神多一、两倍
因此不管他有多莫地冷酷
始终还是会同情这脆弱的人类

后来,有一天
他从收割死神被调为审判死神
和往常一样来到人间界工作
但天气依然和往常一样又是下雨天
他无奈地只好坐在走廊上的
长椅子上等待着临死者的时间到来。。。

但这次的到来并不是来收割灵魂
而是来审判。。

对于即将意外死亡的对象,
他的义务是在其死前进行为期七天的观察
然后再决定是否要实行死亡还是放生

对于他的第一次审判而
做出不同于以往的判断时。。
即将超越时空的命运之轮也将开始转动。。。

(故事的内容大概就是将吧。。。。=.="')
========================================

[主人公]
名:晴之天 (晴天)
年龄:18岁
生日日期:西元前 9月21日
身高:185cm
性格:冷酷,
职业:死神


暂时大概就是酱吧?
若还有遗漏什么我会Edit的~
在那之前就先酱咯~
拜!





.Saturday, August 22, 2009 ' 7:07 AM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted


1st Trailer


2nd Trailer


Full Trailer

One Piece 10th Movie Flim STRONG WORLD
Will be releast at December 12 2009!!!
DAmmmmm!!!! i CAN'T WAIT UNTIL DECEMBER LA!!!!
I WANT TO WATCH IT NOW!!!!! XD





.Thursday, August 20, 2009 ' 10:34 PM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted

1. Debra
2. Alicia
3. Wilson Yee
4. Miki
5. Jayson
6. Ting Hui
7. Soon Fatt
8. Shu Yi
9. Evonne
10. Elaine
11. Sharmien
12. Carmen
13. Fiona
14. Li Ming
15. Yee Siang
16. Wei Foung
17. Leon
18. Kristine
19. Yee Ling
20. Anthony Pang
21. Harry Pang
22. Roy Phang
23. Ray Phang
24. Katrina
25. Leanne
26. Yong Jye
27. Charles
28. Mun Yee
29. Ian Kiki
30. Timothy

THE QUESTIONS:
• How did you meet 10?
(Elaine) In School... o.O"'

• What would you do if you had never met 6?
(Ting Hui) O[]O"' *SHOTS!!*

• What would you do if 20 and 17 dated?
(Anthony & Leon) O.M.G!!!!! O[]O!!!

• If you could marry between 6 and 14, who will it be?
(Ting Hui & Li Ming) Non of them!! O[]O"'

• Did you ever like 9?
(Evonne) as a friend sure i do :)

• Have you ever seen 4 cry?
(Miki) Nope Never :/

• Would 4 and 12 make a good couple?
(Miki & Carmen) NO! HELL NO!!! later wilson will kill Carmen de!!!!! O[]O"'

• Would number 1 and 2 make a good couple?
(Debra & Alicia) ehhhhhh...... no? they aren't lesbian o.o"'

• Describe 8
(Shu Yi) Chocolates Lover *[]*V

• Do you like 12?
(Carmen) as a Friend sure i do :/

• Tell me something about 18
(Kristine) Miss HelloKitty Lover!! :D

• What's 7 's favorite color?
(Soon Fatt) *SHOTS!!* i dunno... may be black... or Pink? o.O"'

• What would you do if 1 just confessed they liked you?
(Debra) What!? that's a Hell No~!! She already have Kiki la =.="'

• When was the last time you talked to number 15?
(Yee Siang) just yesterday :/

• How do you think 19 feels about you?
(Yee Ling) No idea...... :/

• What languages does 13 speak?
(Fiona) Chinese, Bm, English, abit of Japanese and Korean :D

• Who is 2 going out with?
(Alicia) IDK :/

• What grade is 16 in?
(Wei Foung) Form 4 =="'

• What is 5 's favorite music?
(Jayson) hmmm... too much to list :0

• Would you ever date 3?
(Wilson Yee) Hell NO! Later Miki come and killed me lah ="=

• Is 11 single?
(Shermain) i guess........ :X

• What is 10's last name?
(Eliane) No idea... =.="'

• Would you ever want to be in a serious relationship with 7?
(Soon Fatt) N.E.V.E.R!

• Where does 18 live?
(Kristine) hmmm.... oO"'

• What do you think about 20?
(Anthony Pang) IDK =="'

• What is the best thing about 4?
(Miki) Very Pretty :]

• Is 21 hard-working?
(Harry Pang) NO

• What would you like to tell 14 right now?
(Li Ming) nothing... :/

• How did you meet 9?
(Evonne) when we are in kindergarden? (I guess???? o.O)

• What is the best and worst thing about 2?
(Alicia) Best-not so sure.. Worst-SLEEP TOO MUCH!!! XD

• Are you going to know 3 forever?
(Wilson Yee) May be.. :/

• How long have you known 26?
(Yong Jye) Since this year... :o

• Who is 24?
(Katrina) erh... is a gril that obsess with volly ball??? =="'

• Are you or did you ever date 28?
(Mun Yee) NOPE

• Do you have a crush on 27?
(Charles) Ewww~ HELL NO!! DX

• Would you kiss 25?
(Leanne) i ain't Lesbian! D:

• Have you hugged/kissed 22?
(Roy Phang) NO, NO and NO!!!

• Is 29 ur bff?
(Ian Kiki) Consider is... :/

• What do you hate about 23?
(Ray Phang) Nothing... :/

• What's your relationship with 30?
(Timothy) a brother that i wanted it so much!! XD





.Wednesday, August 19, 2009 ' 11:09 AM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted

Woohoo~~
finally finish watching GTO in 1week
Ending wasn't that good but
among all the Old style comic/anime
GTO is consider the best anime ^^
hohohohoho~~ XD





.Monday, August 17, 2009 ' 2:09 AM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted

[Saturday & Sunday]
finally play back maple
but play until like siao jor..
night time watch JR
the next day watch finish le
since is just a 12 ep Anime..
so its canna boring...
lets just skip to monday morning...

[Monday]
wake up quite early today
thx to wilson yee teck quan..
turn out no assembly today
woohoo~~
the starting of the class is boring
so lets just skip to recess..

and so...
finally is recess time~~
woohoo~~ lolx..

just found something intresting
today at recess...
there's a new German tranfer
studen transfered to our school today :D

he's canna cute (consider la~~)
VERY fair (he's MORE Whiter then MJ man!!!!!!)
sharp nose
had a dirty blonde hair
and a very mature voice

and NO, i'm NOT intrested with him~!!

but u know... at recess time
most of the girl are surrounded him
all over the place like he's somekind
of alien or something and keeps
flirting with him...

i was like.... W.T.H???
LoL~~ wtf man.. i mean....
i know there's only like less then few
foreigner ppl will just come to
malaysia expecially our school and
study about malaysia language
and others stuff...

but lol~~ c'mon!!
although he is a foreigner..
but he is also a human too~!! ="=
NOT ALIEN~!!

haiz.... 真是“没眼看”

and so later on after
recess finish is moral

lol~~
didn't know he was at class 4K for moral class
until i saw him sitting at a place
surrounding by a bunch of girls again... =="'

haiz...

i wonder y all the girls are
to disperate for him..
i mean... lol

HE IS JUST A NORMAL HUMAN BEING
FROM THE OTHER SIDE OF THE COUNTRY ONLY~!!!!

haiz...
then later on Miss.Foo came in
i was canna blur case at the moment..

she ask me to sit next to the new foreign student
but i went and sit next to saguna..
then later on debra called me
and i was really in blur case atm..

Debra :"Teacher called you to sit NEXT to him not saguna la Donk~!!"
Me :"W-w-w-WHAT?! O[]O"'"

.......... Wth just happen?!

ok lol that's very funny...

dunno what to do so i just "guai guai"
de listen to teacher and shift
to the place next to him.........

yiks....
heart beatting very fast man...

at first i just say hi to him
and turn my head off aside cause
i competly dunno what to talk about...

not to say i ignore him or something lah...
it just that the atmosphere was canna awkward~~

it really felt awkward not to talk to him
so to avoid the awkward-ness...
i start the conversation....

Me :"hey nice to meet you, my name is zen.. what's your name?"
(me trying to Be friendly)
Him :"hi my name is Simon, nice to meet you too"
Me :"ooo icic~~ so where your from?"
Him :"oh i'm from German"
Me :"oooo wow that's nice!! so.. how do you feel about Malaysia~?? like the weather and place and everything......"
Him :"oh the weather is different from german.. it's so hot and...."

...... ......
...... .......
...... .......
...... .......
...... ......

and so the "Lame" conversation continue........ =_="'

well...
at least know his name is simon anyway xD
and he's from German, and of coz he's 16....
and he lives around USJ 6 if i not mistaken...... =="'
(now what?! i'm a stalker now?!)

but i felt like there's alot of those
"Devil-eye-look" staring at me
when i was talking to him....

and also..
there is this one girl sitting next to him...
(on the left side of him)
was like SO~~~~ obsess with him...

not just his hand phone num,
but she also asked for his MSN e-mail,
house add... contact number
or anyother things.... etc etc
they keep asking from him... =="'

i was like....
wth... is he a super Star or something????
y u guys so obsess with him?!?!?! =A="'

then so continue the moral lession =="'

Miss.Foo : bla bla bla bla bla~~~~~
Me : Speechless...
Him : Dunno what to do...

and so later he was yawning...

Me :"seems to me you looks canna boring..."
Him :"oh nonono, i'm just canna sleepy.. that's all"
Me :"oh... i see..."

Me :"i guess you dunno what the teacher is talking about, do you?"
Him :"ya...." (with his shoulder rising up)

and again...
the "Devil-eye-look" staring at me again...

yiks... feel very uncomfortable with the staring
is it really that hard just to talk to him??

and so the moral class finally came to and end...

before living i introduce him to
debra, alicia and teck quan :D
then we off to class...

the end... :/





.Thursday, August 13, 2009 ' 1:01 PM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted

just Finish reading the old comic series
"Hareluya" and "Bremen" within 2 days..
(or may be less then 2days ba~~??)

haha i dunno xD
"Bremen"...
it was really a VERY intresting comic..
except for the sex part, S&M part, rapping part,
bloody fight scene... etc etc
every thing was very nice and intresting~~ xD

its really raelly intresting though~~ xD
haha~~

now i will be continue reading other old comic
hehehehehe~~ ^^

"To young to live, To fast to die"





.Tuesday, August 11, 2009 ' 11:56 AM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted

i started to get bored with the
modern comic now this days...
Like Bleach, Naruto... etc etc
you know...
anything name you can name of??

although there are very intresting
and very popular too
but just that i want to read something different..

Except for One Piece only..
i would NEVER get bored with it no matter
how many times i repeating reading it xD
hehe~~

and so all of a suddden,
i kind of missing reading the old 90s comic
such as GTO, Hareluya,
Hareluya II Boy, Bremen ...etc etc

you knows...
it was really quite a popular comic at the old 90s
i still remember reading it at the age of 9 or 10
which i dunno what the hell are
they talking in the comic though xD
hahahahaha...

now that i have the feeling to read the old comic back..
by chances i might get comic fever soon enough xD
hahahahaha~~ XD

k gtg now~
its 3:20am in the morning now
and i'm still here blogging xD
k la nites every one!!





. ' 7:19 AM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted

went through devaintART for a random search
and found my self a so DAMM awsome
Digital Portraits of
Lee Min-Ho aka Goo Jun Pyo

Lee Min Ho aka Goo Jun Pyo
he look so damm real right?? XD





.Monday, August 10, 2009 ' 5:19 AM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted

What color/kind of socks are you wearing?
[ ] Red = loud
[ ] Green = stupid,
[x] None = freaky
[ ] Fuzzy = gorgeous
[ ] Yellow = innocent
[ ] Purple = a little too happy
[ ] Black = emo
[ ] Stripes = funny
[ ] Gray = skanky
[ ] Pink = preppy
[ ] Light blue = sweaty
[ ] Other = hot
[ ] White = sexy

What kind of pants are you wearing?
[x]Shorts = cutie
[ ]Skirt/skort = skank
[ ]Corduroy = faggot homosexual
[ ]Skinny jeans = scene kid
[ ]Ripped jeans = emo (the one day i wear em, i swear)
[ ]Cammo = cage fighter
[ ]Jeans = prep
[ ]Pajamas = pimp
[ ]Cargo = clown
[ ]Sweats = athlete
[ ]Boxers = brat
[ ]Booty shorts = female
[ ]Capris = Gangster
[ ]Nothing = hoe
[ ]Dickies = weirdo
[ ]Bikini bottoms = tiki girl
[ ]Other = sex addict

What is your natural hair color?
[ ]Auburn = that every one wants to make out with
[ ]Blonde = with a broken heart
[x]Black = with a sexy smile
[ ]Dark brown = with a hot boyfriend/girlfriend
[ ]Red = that likes to have fun
[ ]Brown = who loves to be different
[ ]Dirty blonde= with sexy eyes
[ ]Bald = with herpes
[ ]Other = with a nice ass

Pick the month you were born on:
[x]1 = who ate
[ ]2 = who needed
[ ]3 = who killed
[ ]4 = who shot
[ ]5 = who killed
[ ]6 = who smoked with
[ ]7 = who banged
[ ]8 = who ran shirtless with
[ ]9 = who got stabbed horribly by
[ ]10 = who cuddled with
[ ]11 = who slept with
[ ]12 = who ran naked with

Pick the day you were born on:
[ ]01 = the kool-aid man
[ ]02 = a dog
[ ]03 = a shoe
[ ]04 = a toothbrush
[ ]05 = Santa Claus
[ ]06 = The Trojan man
[ ]07 = Barny the dinosaur
[ ]08 = a prostitute
[ ]09 = a porn star
[ ]10 = a bag of weed
[ ]11 = a lover
[ ]12 = a glass of milk
[ ]13 = a horse
[ ]14 = a stripper
[ ]15 = a lesbian
[ ]16 = a pickle
[ ]17 = a jew
[ ]18 = a homo
[ ]19 = an orange
[ ]20 = a dildo
[ ]21 = a homeless guy
[ ]22 = a whore
[ ]23 = my crush
[ ]24 = an easter egg
[ ]25 = a jar of honey
[ ]26 = a condom
[ ]27 = a bowl of cereal
[x]28 = a french fry
[ ]29 = your dealer
[ ] 30 = Paris Hilton
[ ]31 = your grandma

Pick the color of the shirt you are wearing
[ ]White = because I love marijuana
[ ]Black = because im sexy as hell
[ ]Pink = Because the lil people told me to
[ ]Blue = because I have AMAZING boobs
[ ]Red = because I'm a pimp and your jealous
[ ]Polka Dots = because I hate my life
[ ]Purple = because I'm gay
[ ]Gray = because I got dared
[x]Other = because that's how I roll
[ ]Green = because I'm good in bed
[ ]Orange = because I smoke crack
[ ]Turquoise = because I have a noodle in my nose
[ ]Brown = because I had to
[ ]Shirtless = because I've got abs
[ ]Aqua = 'cause the 306CBZ kick cun

Answer: I'am a freaky cutie with a sexy smile who ate a french fry because that's how I roll





.Sunday, August 09, 2009 ' 10:41 PM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted

1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?
- No.. Not necessary needed

2. Smart?
- Sure, but Not necessary needed

3. Preferred age?
- 16~21??

4. Preferred height?
- about 170~180?? No need that tall la actually~~

5. How about sense of humor?
- that's definitely a YES!!!

6. How about piercings?
- as long is not too lala then can le xD

7. Accepts you for who you are?
- Duh... o.O"'

8. Pink hair?
- what?

9. Mushy or no?
- abit can la xD

10. Thin or fat?
- can i say fit?

11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)?
- eheh... being racist arr??? ~_~"'

12. Long hair or short hair?
- both also can xD

13. Plastic or metal?
- what's that suppose to mean??

14. Smells good?
- Ok i guess...

15. Smoker?
- Hell NO!

16. Drinker?
- as long he dont get Drunk and hangover then can le... O.O"'

17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?
- Means?

18. Muscular?
- Fit then can la =="'

19. Plays piano?
- any instrument will do... :)

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
- Anything =="'

21. Plays violin?
- Anything lor~!!

22. Sings very good?
- Sure.. but Not necessary needed

23. Vain?
- i dunno about this.....

24. With glasses?
- some guys whit glasses looks canna handsome/cute.. xD

25. With braces?
- Can la~~

26. Shy type?
- Sure~~ some Guys who's shy looks canna cute xD

27. Rebel or good boy/girl?
- both abit abit can de la xD

28. Active or passive?
- Both

29. Tight or bomb?
- What? O.O

30. Singer or dancer?
- Both also can.. but Not necessary needed

31. Stunner?
- Sure~ but not necessary needed

32. Hip hop?
- Sure~ but not necessary needed

33. Earrings?
- Sure..

34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-girlfriends-until-you-drop?
- what's that suppose to mean?? O.O"'

35. Dimples?
- Sure~ might gonna looks cute/handsome anyway xD

36. Bookworm?
- Maybe A little...

37. Mr/Ms. love letter?
- that would be very romantic~~ xD

38. Playful?
- a little bit

39. Flirt?
- with me xD

40. Poem writer?
- Sure~~ but not necessary needed

41. Serious?
- Only when it come to a serious matter~~

42. Campus crush?
- ehh.... means...?? o.O"'

43. Painter?
- oh sure that would be GREAT~~ :D

44. Religious?
- eheh...

45. Someone who likes to tease people?
- No

46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?
- both add abit can de la~~ ^^

47. Speaks 20 languages?
- sure~~ but not necessary needed.. LoL!!

48. Loyal or faithful?
- Both

49. Good kisser
- Dammmmmm~~ XD

50. loves children??
- sure~ :)





. ' 6:15 AM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted

.......

Ten things I wish I could say to people:
1. I like you
2. the truth is... I love you
3. If you ever need my help.. i'll be there anytime, anywhere :)
4. If you ever need a shoulder to cry on.. my shoulder is always reserve for you :)
5. Is Loving you a Sin?
6. What would you do if everyone in this world tend to hate you?
7. Can i say No?
8. I think i just fall in love with you...
9. I'm Sorry for loving you
10. Do you really hate me that much?

Nine things about myself:
1. I Love One Piece the Most
2. I'm a Manga/Anime Freak
3. I Love to Draw but i'm SUCK at it
4. I Love Candies and Chocolates
5. I Hate Cockroach and Bitches the MOST
6. I wanna be a Manga-Ka when i grow up
7. I'am a good listeners.. (somehow, i guess...? :?)
8. I can be good but somehow... most of the time i'm bad.. :/
9. I'm JUST an Ordinary girl that has a VERY unlucky life =="'

Eight ways to win my heart:
1. -
2. -
3. -
4. -
5. -
6. -
7. -
8. -

Seven things that cross my mind a lot:
1. what dose the word forever means?
2. what's my purpose of living?
3. Hahaha... ya right... =="'
4. Argh F@$%~!! Not him again?!
5. No.. i dont think so...
6. that's... so not true!!!
7. ..... that's a total bullshit!!

Six things I do before I go to sleep:
1. Off my com's Monitor
2. Listen to my MP3 (but someone stole it... D':)
3. Read some Comic
4. Set my Alarm
5. Off the light
6. Hoping tomorrow would be a better day..

Five places I want to visit:
1. Japan
2. Korea
3. Canada
4. Hawaii
5. Heaven

Four things I’m wearing right now:
1. Glasses
2. T-shirt
3. Surf pants
4. Jacket

Three bands I listen to often:
1. SS501
2. Simple Plan
3. many more....

Two things I want to do before I die:
1. Tell the person that i like/love "I Love You"
2. Find a Good place to die.. (?)

One confession:
1. I'm sorry for being a Troublem Maker... But that's who i'am





.Saturday, August 08, 2009 ' 11:31 AM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted

dunno what happen to my speaker lately
it went doom out of the sudden =="'
yesterday was like all right
then the next day it went all Doom and
i was like...
"argh fack~!! DAMM YOU SPEAKER!!!!"

dammmm.... but i somehow wonder that
do the "Things" really hate me that much until
they can even "commit suicide" too???? O.O
LoL~~ okay..
that may sound canna un-logic huh? =="'

haiz...
and there's exam next week too....

oh man... i'm so dead... ="=





.Wednesday, August 05, 2009 ' 7:21 AM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted

another question to the WORLD...
What would you do if everyone in this world tend to hate you?





.Tuesday, August 04, 2009 ' 6:41 AM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted

one question to the World..
what's the purpose for my living?
can anyone tell me?
i seriously dont get it...

few days ago i fought up with my friends
and i even back step my friend
friend said to me...
"Because of you my life is ruin,
THANKS for Ruin MY LIFE!!"

few weeks back my family scold me
for being suck a troblem maker at my age..

even though then didn't say it out
but i can feel it from there heart
i bet they wanted to say thing like this to me...
"your fault is BEING in this world!!"
"your mere existence is YOUR SIN"
...... etc etc

you know...
until now i still dont get it..
if my mother said that she
regreted giving birth me for
being such a troublem maker
then y didn't she abortion
me at the 1st place??

y am i still on this world?
what's my purpose anyway?
for being such a troblem maker?

i dont know...
i NEVER wanted to live in this world
i felt like i dont EVEN belong to THIS World

for me who is being in this world
makes them feel VERY loathsome...
and Very troublemsome too...

on that day when i fought up with my friends
i really wanted to jump off the school building
but in the end i didnt

but still
if i really wanted to
i would just jump off

i dont wanna care about the world anymore
friends and family dont really care that much
for me like how they use to since i'm just a troublem maker
my life's getting sucker and sucker each day
and each day i keep making MORE and MORE troublem for everyone

is their right to hate me or dislike me anyway..
i dont deserve to be like or love by anyone
and its ALSO my fault for living in this world too
i'm good for nothing...
haiz.....

i'm a girl but my intention
makes me a guy(or worst then a guy)

i betrayed my friends,
i betrayed my family,
i even betrayed my self..

if depart from this world could
atlease make them feel better or felt peaceful
i think i would do it
i dunno what am i suppose to do in this world anyway...

What am i suppose to do?
can anyone tell me? :(





.Saturday, August 01, 2009 ' 5:59 AM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted

today went to SP with ting today
hahax~~ xD

ill make this short..
(too lazy to write in details =="')

we went chiong k at Red Box 1st
sing until our throat also pain le xP
after chiong k then i go cut my hair
then buy my comic and magazine
then go makan in wendy's
then went to mini toons
buy a Mini voodoo for "HIM"
then we went back...

the end :/


My Comic and Magazine


the Mini Voodoo that i buy and wanted to gave HIM...... :?







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