.Friday, July 03, 2009 ' 11:17 AM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted
Love atmosphere is back again...
mostly every one i know in my class
are fallen in love
includ Teck quan and ting hui aswell...
Debra and Alicia have a BF long time ago
Left me alone in this
Love atmosphere class room...=="'
well...
i'm Very happy for you guys... :)
seriously :)
hehe... :D
so anyway...
Debra, Alicia and Teck Quan always
told me to find a boyfriend
so that i wont felt left out
what...?!
i? felt left out?
Nah!! i'm totally fine!!
y would u say i felt left out??
huh?! seriously!! no joke!
I'M FINE!!!!!
they ask me to try Cpl with Jayson
ehhh?! erm... i'm sorry Guys..
But..! i like Jay as a Friend ONLY,
nothing more then that, okie?
LoL, seriously... ONLY a FRIEND.. =.="'
although i know Jayson is a nice guy
but he deserve some one
WHO IS better then me!
seriously...
he is a REAL nice guy..
and he REALLY deserve someone
WHO is MUCH MORE better then me!!
so anyway...
speaking of Love Atmosphere..
the pass few days i've been watching
Romance K-Drama and T-Drama..
LoL...
for some reason i think
i got addicted to it
i can't event play maple anymore...
i event start to draw a comic
about Romance
the point is...
i think i'm fallen inLove(again)...
well...
it's something like....
erm... i dunno... :(
i always hide my emotion
i always said that i'm not
into that kind of stuff
i always said that Love is nothing
i always told my self i shouldn't let my
self interfere the word "Relationship"
i always told my self that "我只弹琴绝不谈情"
(meaning no matter how and what happen
you wont fall in love with anyone or so..)
but now...
i dunno what should i do...
i started to like someone..
Badly, REAL Badly... :(
(okay may be not that bad =="')
i wont tell out the real name
but i'll just name him as Zoro-San =="'
well...
we dont really know each other that much..
something is just like Hi and Bye..
that's all
(consider as Love at First sight ba?)
well...
yesterday morning saw him
in cc with his friends,
at first i didn't realize
until i saw him siting
opposide side of our com
quite surprising anyway...
at first i though it was just some
random guy that looks like him nia
but when i look clearly
it was him!
and he saw me (eye to eye? no)
but i dunno how to react
i was trying not to look at him
but it seems abit like no manners
so i just enlarge my eye
and wave at him and say hi
then continue playing the Com game..
i felt kind-off embarrassed my self though..
I dunno what heppen to me
i think i was blushing at the moment...
for no reason at all...
and after going back home
i started to flash back
what happen in the cc
(the eye to eye stare?)
but i dont want to perasan..
i dont want to perasan said that
he look at me means he likes me =="'
i dont want to believe this shit thingy
unless he told me him self
if not i wont believe a piece of shit!
but still...
i think i started to have
the feelings for him..
but my feeling for him is so complicated..
i dunno how am i suppose to face it
if it's true that if i REALLY
fall inlove with him..
i dont think i have the guts to propose to him,
i mean to a guy i like.. again(anymore)
i dont think i can't handle it..
and event though if i propose to him and he reject me..
that's also okie anyways...
although it might hurt alot.. (hell alot..)
but i'll still take it as a man(woman?)
'cause after all..
it's just my one-sided love anyway...
and he might also have some one
in his mind already...
"有舍才有得"
if you are willing to give up on it
then you can gain something better..
there's also one chinese idiom said
"被逼的爱情是没有辛福的"
means that a Force Relationship has
no happiness in the end
if that's the reality
i think i should just accept it anyway..
haiz...
... ...
... ...!
wait...!!
omg...
what's going with me??
why am i suddenly so desperate for love?
i'm never like that before..
what's going one with me...?!
Omg....
i think i'm REALLY getting Crazy soon...
REAL soon.....
'cause i couldn't think straight anymore...
i can't... :(
