.Monday, April 06, 2009 ' 5:18 AM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted
i don't wanna talk about today weather i got go to school anot
cause obviously i didn't go again...
anyway...
my Maple de Assassin finally lvl 70 and become hermit le...
yay~~ but wasted alot of dark Crystal ore and my mesos =="'
then few mints later....
debra call me......
Debra : "hello?"
Her sister : "@$%$£^%"$£^ ponting again la!!" (can't hear what she's saying)
Me : "hello?"
Debra : "Zen? why didn't come to school again?!" (sound canna dissopoint)
Her sister : "@Q"£$£"%"%" ponting again la!" (i really can't hear what she's trying to say =="')
Debra : "Elysia, can you keep quiet?!"
Me : "............" (speechless)
Debra : "Zen!! why didn't come to school today?!!" (she sound like wanna scold me)
Me : "Teck Quan say today got the lisan thingy so he decied to ponting school today"
Debra : "Just because of this you guys wanna ponting??!" (this time she sound really pissed off with us, or just me?)
Debra : "you know, you change alot la zen... Our friendship is like far apart already, You are not the zen i use to know anymore... even jay was very disspoint with you today"
Me : "..........." (remain speechless)
Debra : "I also just scold and yell at teck quan just now, then he say he'll promist he come to school tomorrow"
Me : "oh... okay..."
Debra : "*Exhale* anyway... tomorrow you can't sit with us anymore"
Me : ".....!!?" (i was canna shock when i hear that)
Me : "oh really... ehh.. why?" (trying to calm my self down but actually i was afraid)
Debra : " Because there's a new indian student sitting next to ting hui, so ya you can't sit with us anymore"
at the moment when i hear what she says
i felt like she's throwing a boom to me...
if u know what i mean...
it's something like "you are no longer with us anymore, so please move away."
sigh....
Me : "............." (remain silent, 'cause i don't think i wanna hear anything anymore...)
Debra : "So you coming tomorrow?"
Me : "..... yes"
Debra : "Are you really coming anot?! last friday you promist me you said that you'll come but in the end you didn't!"
Me : "Yes i promist you i'll come!! if i don't come i'll chop off my head for you!"
Debra : "..... okay... good" (she sound canna satisfied)
Me : " 'kay... bye.."
Debra : "bye"
-phone off-
................
i dunno what to say....
she sound like she's really not
happy with who i am anymore...
i always feel that ever since Alicia came,
the time we spend is getting lesser and lesser..
and on the opposite side,
the time they spend is getting more and more..
i try not to care,
i try no to bother,
i keep telling my self
that debra is my best friend
she won't leave me alone no matter what happen.....
right?
................
but things always turn out the opposite side T T
she no more talking to me like how we use to talk anymore...
she no more hugging me like how we use to hug anymore...
she easily get angry with me what ever things i do wrong,
even it is just a small things...
she said that i care less about my Best Friend
but more about my "friends"
she said that i don't care her anymore
she said that i change alot
she said that i'm not the Zen who i use to be anymore
she said that i don't understand her feelings......i dunno what to do...
i dunno what to say...
i think.....
may be it's time for me to go now....
to the place where i can
toss away all my worried
and live atleast a happy life
without any one complain
why they have such a bad life....
'cause the longer i stay,
the worst things happends more
may be i'm what ppl call "dai sai" ba?
sigh...... this year so bad luck T T
every thing went out all wrong
its even worst then last year =="'
argh.....!!
my life sucks...
i hate my life.....
i wish i could end it right now!
My life is to miserable :(
i don't think i can hold on to this kind of life anymore longer.... :'(
