.Sunday, January 18, 2009 ' 11:01 PM Y
& your love is all i ever wanted
this probably will be the MOST stupid thing i ever did in my life T_T...
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yesterday night i didn't sleep well
coz i was thinking of something...
i tried to lisent to my mp3 but it turn out worst...
i can't sleep AT all...
since i can't sleep so i wake up
around 6am and go taka a shower....
after i finish shower...
..... it's only 6.30am...
sigh.... it's still early and i've
nothing to do so i read my "Love Novel"
which i bought it early yesterday.....
the story was quite intresting anyway....
ahh~it almost time to go to school..
so i went to school with my bag and everything
(include the present aswell la... )
it only took me 3~5mint to walk to school...
after i arrive at school...
i saw debra and alicia was chit-chating
but haven't seen him around yet... (sad...)
on the way i forget to wear my tie (ahh sh--!!)
lucky my house is near to my school...
so i run back to my house as fast as i could and get my tie
then i run back to school again... (tired-ing)
phew..... manage to get in time
the so call "Boring assembly" was going to start soon...
so i was rushing and finding and wondering
where the hell is debra and the others??!
they took my bag and my file and... not to mantion...
the present too... =="'
after i found them, teck quan was taking my bag and files...
ehh... and the present as well.. =.="'
(but still... thanks alot for helping me carying my beg la~:] )
after i take back my bags and everything from teck quan
i quickly go to my class and line up...
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it's almost time...
but he's still wasn't there... (sad...)
i was staring at the present and thinking
*maybe i should just give him by tomorrow
since he's not coming to school today... *
meanwhile...
debra was wispering to me...
'hey zen! look! look at his hair!'
huh...? what? who??!
i was a lil confused at the moment until
i clear my eye and i saw...
oh... it was him! haha...
he finally make it in time...
canna happy at the moment...
weeeeeeeee~
but his hair was...
its... i dunno what to say..
but.... he looks cute with it anyway..!!
hahaha... xD
debra say that his hair is soft... o.O"'
(hmmm... i wonder how she knows.... :X )
and so i was trying to imagine that
how does it feels like if i touch his hair...
ehh... LoL.....
hahaha... = ="'
he was sitting next to my class with some of his fren and rob too...
in the middle of the assembly...
i was so boring and sleepy
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really wanted to fall asleep if i can...
*yawn~* saw him chatting with his fren...
chatting chatting chatting.... and... and...
he smile!!! XD
awwww~ he's smile was so cute... xD
oh... erm...
ehem... *clearing throat*
sry to make you guys disgusted
by what i say just now... =="'
anyway... as i was trying to look at him again...
i dunno y...
but suddenly rob was looking and smiling at me...
well... he never use to smile at me...
only we talk la... but...
i was canna suprised anyhow...
well.. although its canna freaky...
but still... i smile back to him... :D
(a friendly smile... )
[an hour later...]
poof~! Finally the "Boring" assembly is finish!
weeeeeeeeee~
after we finish singing the school song
debra suddenly wishper to me again...
"zen... go give the present to him now..."
...... what??!
n-n-now...?! but...
there's so many ppl around him..
include his fren and others...
and i don't wanna embarass my self in front of them...
especially him!!
"NO, not now! too many ppl la..."
but debra wishper to me again...
"GO Now! he's alone!"
"(finding excuse) i think i'll give him in class..."
"ehh... c'mon la... i can do in infront of every one y cant u...?!"
"but... "
..... ..... ..... (silent...)
ok.... may be she's right...
that makes me canna shame somehow.....
"ok fine..."
as i finish my line...
i hold the present and walk towards him...
my hand was shaking
and i was really really nervous at the moment...
my heart was pumping faster and faster...
and my head and mine was totally blank and empty
but in the next minute...
i never notice that i was already standing right beside of him...
"ehh... diomand..."
(NOT the actual name... it just a make up Nick-name ONLY.... LoL =="')
(he's looked at me...)
"ehh... i got something for you... =="' "
"...?"
"ehh... well... i brough this for you..."
"..... ..... .....!!!" (blushing... i guess???)
at that moment...
i started to realize that he was kanna surprised
and somehow (i think..?)
he was a lil blushing (or not... i dunno...)
and he was like...
the eye big big...
mouth open... (but not wide open de la...)
and his eyebrow was high on his forehead...
and i remember 1st word he ever said was...
"oh my gosh.." (LoL xD)
and so i pass the present into his hand...
lol....
i couldn't stare at his face...
but somehow i think he is blushing???
(or not...? i DUNNO!!!!)
but im pretty sure that i AM the one is who blushing already...
cause i can almost feel my face is burning red and hot...! =[]="'
"...... ...... ......" (i guess he dunno what to say le......)
"so.. ehh... hope you like it..." (with a smile... =="')
"... ... ..." (still remain silent...)
after saying that...
i quickly turn around and walk away as fast as i could...
all he's fren though that i was trying to propose to him or something.....
and "hope you like it?!"
that was a stupid line i ever think of!!!!!
argh!!!!!! stupid me!!!!!
on the way back i Really give my self a "Big Smack" on my forehead...
and i totally forgotten the lines i prepare earlyer!!
argh..!!!
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ahh... sigh.... nvm.....
i already give it to him...
so i really hope that he'll like it.....
and use it well...?
but...
would he trush it...?
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i hope not... o O ...
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but dunno y after i went back to class..
i started to miss him.....
ALOT...
even though it just a few minutes...
but i miss him like i never seen him in ages...
i can't hold my self....
i miss him so much...
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what heappen to me...??
argh.....
getting a lil crazy at class today....
can't stop thinking about him!!!
argh.....
some one please help me....
i think i'm going crazy soon.....
argh.....
i guess i really miss you alot... sigh...... T_T"'
