hehe...guess what?
today is my birthday!! :D
weeeeeeeeee~
*jumping and being excited*


today i went to SP to celebrate my birthday :D
hehe...
but sad case theres no birthday cake
'cause the cake shop was close =="'(dammit!!! D:<)


ehh... anyway moving on...
today...me and ma best fren (debra) a her sis (elysia)
went SP
but she was quite mad at me earlyer
coz i woke up late...
(thx to my stupid clock =="')
i was rushing and runing up and down
to get my self done
and my dad fetch me and debra and her sis to SP..
later on
he drop us at SP front gate


we reach at about 1.30p.m i guess?? o.O"'
lolx..


ehh...
after we reached
debra was rushing to the starbuck coffee
'coz she need 2 met some one there... (lol? oO)


after then.. we walk to the cenima and check on what movie's up :D
but when we reach the cenima
the cenima was like...
wow... millions and millions of PEOPLE!!!!!!!! (cheh, just kidding xD)
it was so pack that we decide to go arcade first.. ==


we went to the arcade to fine jay and teck quan...
well... we DID found jay in the arcade...
but.... WHERE THE HELL IS TECK QUAN?!?!?!?! F5!!!!!!11
he's isn't there yet!!!!!
argh!!!!!
*stomach rumbling~*

opps... i haven't eat yet since the morning..
we went to the KFC and McD de turned out the same...
PACK OF MILLIONS or BILLIONS OF PEOPLE!!!!!!1
(LoL not really that much of ppl but still is alot :)
we decide to eat KCF since it's the only one that's
not REALLY that pack of ppl and is less cheaper then McD? oO
(ehh... LoL~!! xD)
we were eating and chit-chating and having fun with our meals :)
*Burb~* opps~ hehe ^.^


later on we went back to arcade again...
looking for the STUPID teck quan...
and Nope...
he's isn't there still...
ARGH!!!!! F5F5!!!


jay was canna "busy" playing his Car and everything...
and we was like...
siting and watching jay playing his "car game"
and waiting for stupid teck quan at the same time...
waiting waiting waiting....

its already 3pm++
he's still not there yet
zzzzzzzzzz....
we were fed up of waiting we decide to call the stupid bastard
and he say HE's at his aunt house...
zzzzzzzzz....
STUPID M0TH3R F@%^&* BASTARD!!!!!1
you could ATLEAST CALL THAT YOU
ARE AT YOUR AUNT HOUSE instate of
LETTING US WAIT LIKE HELL!!!!
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!


since the Bastard is not coming yet..
i decide to go anatomi and buy my new pants :D
debra and her sis come along with me :)

Anatomi is one of the coolest shop in SP :)
there have aLot of nice and Awsome pants and shirt!
(for lala and gothic ppl i think? oO"')
weeeehehehe~ XD


the shopkeeper : "hello! may i help you?"
Me : "ehh... i'm trying to find Cargo pants or army pants if u have?"
the shopkeeper : "ok sure, hold on a mint..."
Me : "okie... o.O" ''


we went look around the shop...
and guess what's next...?
debra was like she's living in her dream world...
'cause she found her dream pants XD
and Most of the pants in anatomi suit her style :D


meanwhile...
the shopkeeper came back with a pants..

shopkeeper : "here you go!"

he pass me a nice cargo pants
its a brown colour cargo pants btw oO


i went to the changing room and try the pants...
but erm... the changing room is canna werid...
is something like window curtain but its round
but i don't give a damm
so i went in and the shopkeeper pull the curtain
and i start changing


lalalalala~
wow!! the pants fit me! :D
and the pants look so nice and cool and awsome xD
Sweeeeeet!! :D


i show to debra and she said is look so nice on me? :D
weeee~!!
and i decide to buy this pants XD
later on the shopkeeper came back

shopkeeper : "is it okie? do u need a bigger size?"
Me : "oh it's fine! its fits me well :D"
shopkeeper : "do u need a new shirt?"
Me : "...... okie sure o.O" "
shopkeeper : "okie hold on a sec again k?"
Me : "k~ "'= ^= "


after while he came back with a black longslive shirt
and i took it and went back to the "weird" changing room
and start change again...


black longslive shirt + Brown Cargo pants...
and the result?


TOTAL AWSOME-NESS!!!!!!!!!!! XD
weeeeeeeeee~!!!!!!!


both of them are so NICE AND COOL!!!!!!
wah~ hehe ^^
its totally awsome BUT also totally expensive too ==
aiyo...
the shirt is about rm78
and the pants is rm108
but i really like the both of them all xD
LoL~
total cost rm180++


its 4pm++
the Bastard FINALLY came... (zzzzzzz...)
the REASON y he came late is Because...
he went to his aunty house and get "Ang Bao"
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
Stupid bastard...
we go to dream world and took the "da tou tie" of us


*snap*
*snapping*
*continue snapping*
*the snaping continual~*

and Ta-Da~!!
the "da tou tie" is DONE!!! :D
weeeeeeeeee~
well...
some of the picture looks nice but some aren't
but we are still having fun anyway :D
hehe ^^

its almost 5
jay need 2 go back soon
so we went back to the arcade to spend out last mint hang out
with jay
about 5 jay went back
*sad~*

after jay went back
only left the 4 of us hanging and walking around the SP
we went all around the SP *tired~~~~!!*

teck quan said he wanted to buy winnie a present so we went to
a "Couple shop" to buy his gift~
(woooooo~ teck quan~~~!!! xD)
he buy a VERY cute dear with love for winnie~!!
(it's so god dammmmmmm cute!!! XD)
later on we walk around SP again
we went to mini toon and debra saw her dream bag
buy 1 free 1?
wow!! that's awsome :D
i went and buy it since its worth and i also need a new bag btw :D
hehe
so 1 for me and 1 for debra :D
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~!!!
the bag cost rm78 oO
omg..... O[]O"''
hahaha...

we still hanging around
until it's already 7++
and it started to rain

i called my mom but somehow she's still half way sleeping
so i have to take the taxi back home
debra was so freaking afraid of taking the taxi =="'
but still we manage to take the taxi back home ==

i went back to debra's house since it's "raining cats and dogs" ==
aiyo~
i can't go back
so i have to stay at debra house to wait for the rain to stop

debra's mother ask me to watch some movie
debra show me some of her new movie
and i pick one of her movie called "Gabriel"?
(did i mistake the spelling??)
it was a nice movie 8D
Gabriel is sosososososo handsome XDDDD

but around 8++
the rain is getting lesser and lesser
so ya i have to go back since
the rain is not that much anymore
(NO~~~~~~~!!!!)
aiyo...
haven't watch finish the "Gabriel" movie la =="'
aiyo... swt =="'

so later on..
i walk back home
i change ma cloth and have a nice sleep
since i'm so freaking tired walking here and there
from the afternoon until night
hehe XD

sigh...
got heart broken today...

never noe it would turn out that bad...
sigh...
i really dunno what to do now...

T_T
i guess no matter what i do..
it'll always turn out really bad...
nor worst....
it would never heappen
the way i think it would be...

sigh....
i don't think i wanna try it anymore...
i think i should just give up and live with it...
i really dont wish to make the same mistake again....

Never..

Ever...

Again...

but some how... if ITs really heappens...
(but still it won't no matter what heappen...)

i would really wanna hold you tight in my arm...
and just take all your sadness away...

thank you for all you've done...
and please try to frogive all the mistake
that i've done...

there's nothing i could do to hear your voice again...
'cause when i try to call you...

you aren't there anymore...

sob..... T_T...

this probably will be the MOST stupid thing i ever did in my life T_T...

...... ...... ...... ......

yesterday night i didn't sleep well
coz i was thinking of something...
i tried to lisent to my mp3 but it turn out worst...
i can't sleep AT all...

since i can't sleep so i wake up
around 6am and go taka a shower....
after i finish shower...
..... it's only 6.30am...
sigh.... it's still early and i've
nothing to do so i read my "Love Novel"
which i bought it early yesterday.....
the story was quite intresting anyway....

ahh~it almost time to go to school..
so i went to school with my bag and everything
(include the present aswell la... )
it only took me 3~5mint to walk to school...
after i arrive at school...
i saw debra and alicia was chit-chating
but haven't seen him around yet... (sad...)
on the way i forget to wear my tie (ahh sh--!!)
lucky my house is near to my school...
so i run back to my house as fast as i could and get my tie
then i run back to school again... (tired-ing)

phew..... manage to get in time

the so call "Boring assembly" was going to start soon...
so i was rushing and finding and wondering
where the hell is debra and the others??!
they took my bag and my file and... not to mantion...
the present too... =="'
after i found them, teck quan was taking my bag and files...
ehh... and the present as well.. =.="'
(but still... thanks alot for helping me carying my beg la~:] )

after i take back my bags and everything from teck quan
i quickly go to my class and line up...
...... .... ......

it's almost time...
but he's still wasn't there... (sad...)
i was staring at the present and thinking
*maybe i should just give him by tomorrow
since he's not coming to school today... *

meanwhile...

debra was wispering to me...

'hey zen! look! look at his hair!'

huh...? what? who??!
i was a lil confused at the moment until
i clear my eye and i saw...
oh... it was him! haha...
he finally make it in time...
canna happy at the moment...
weeeeeeeee~

but his hair was...

its... i dunno what to say..
but.... he looks cute with it anyway..!!
hahaha... xD
debra say that his hair is soft... o.O"'
(hmmm... i wonder how she knows.... :X )
and so i was trying to imagine that
how does it feels like if i touch his hair...
ehh... LoL.....
hahaha... = ="'

he was sitting next to my class with some of his fren and rob too...
in the middle of the assembly...
i was so boring and sleepy
...... ...... ......
really wanted to fall asleep if i can...

*yawn~* saw him chatting with his fren...
chatting chatting chatting.... and... and...
he smile!!! XD
awwww~ he's smile was so cute... xD
oh... erm...

ehem... *clearing throat*
sry to make you guys disgusted
by what i say just now... =="'

anyway... as i was trying to look at him again...
i dunno y...
but suddenly rob was looking and smiling at me...
well... he never use to smile at me...
only we talk la... but...
i was canna suprised anyhow...
well.. although its canna freaky...
but still... i smile back to him... :D
(a friendly smile... )


[an hour later...]


poof~! Finally the "Boring" assembly is finish!
weeeeeeeeee~
after we finish singing the school song
debra suddenly wishper to me again...

"zen... go give the present to him now..."

...... what??!
n-n-now...?! but...
there's so many ppl around him..
include his fren and others...
and i don't wanna embarass my self in front of them...
especially him!!

"NO, not now! too many ppl la..."

but debra wishper to me again...

"GO Now! he's alone!"

"(finding excuse) i think i'll give him in class..."

"ehh... c'mon la... i can do in infront of every one y cant u...?!"

"but... "

..... ..... ..... (silent...)
ok.... may be she's right...
that makes me canna shame somehow.....

"ok fine..."

as i finish my line...
i hold the present and walk towards him...
my hand was shaking
and i was really really nervous at the moment...
my heart was pumping faster and faster...
and my head and mine was totally blank and empty
but in the next minute...
i never notice that i was already standing right beside of him...

"ehh... diomand..."
(NOT the actual name... it just a make up Nick-name ONLY.... LoL =="')

(he's looked at me...)

"ehh... i got something for you... =="' "

"...?"

"ehh... well... i brough this for you..."

"..... ..... .....!!!" (blushing... i guess???)

at that moment...
i started to realize that he was kanna surprised
and somehow (i think..?)
he was a lil blushing (or not... i dunno...)
and he was like...
the eye big big...
mouth open... (but not wide open de la...)
and his eyebrow was high on his forehead...
and i remember 1st word he ever said was...

"oh my gosh.." (LoL xD)

and so i pass the present into his hand...
lol....
i couldn't stare at his face...
but somehow i think he is blushing???
(or not...? i DUNNO!!!!)
but im pretty sure that i AM the one is who blushing already...
cause i can almost feel my face is burning red and hot...! =[]="'

"...... ...... ......" (i guess he dunno what to say le......)

"so.. ehh... hope you like it..." (with a smile... =="')

"... ... ..." (still remain silent...)

after saying that...
i quickly turn around and walk away as fast as i could...
all he's fren though that i was trying to propose to him or something.....
and "hope you like it?!"
that was a stupid line i ever think of!!!!!
argh!!!!!! stupid me!!!!!

on the way back i Really give my self a "Big Smack" on my forehead...
and i totally forgotten the lines i prepare earlyer!!
argh..!!!
...... ...... ......
ahh... sigh.... nvm.....
i already give it to him...
so i really hope that he'll like it.....
and use it well...?

but...
would he trush it...?
...... ...... ......
i hope not... o O ...
...... ...... ...... ^

but dunno y after i went back to class..
i started to miss him.....
ALOT...
even though it just a few minutes...
but i miss him like i never seen him in ages...
i can't hold my self....
i miss him so much...
...... ...... ...... ......

what heappen to me...??

argh.....
getting a lil crazy at class today....
can't stop thinking about him!!!

argh.....
some one please help me....
i think i'm going crazy soon.....
argh.....

i guess i really miss you alot... sigh...... T_T"'

THIS... probably will be the most stupid thing i ever did for a guy i like... =="'

"how the top actually looks like..."

lolx.... > <"'
(i was thinking of giving the red one to "him"...)
hahahahaha xD

after that my dad called...
we went back to the place we came...
but on the way back...
debra saw a shop that sell some nice and cool badge
so we went in and buy the badge to pin it on our bag...
(We buy quite alot... coz it was cheap! xD)
after then... we quickly rush back to the place we came from
and woots~ my dad and sis is waiting at there le
we go back to the car park and my dad drives us back home...

after i went back home, i'm tired already...
can Nearly fall asleep lor~ =.=zzZ

but is was a great day after all...
and i really having fun with all my fren who hang out with me :D
hehe... xD

weeeeee~ today i have a hair cut and its freaking short o.O
lolx~ got scold by my mom saying that i look like a total tomboi XP
(sry mom! won't happen again i promise :))

anyway.. today is was a good day also a bad day la..
good thing is i sort of have a chance to go near to the "guy" i like.. o0
bad thing is i have a hair cut which my mom say is a TOTAL TomBoi Look XD
hahahahaha~

my mom was scolding me like a mad person =.="'
and now she's totally pissed off with me T_T
(i'm sry mom! pls forgive me~!)

sigh... T_T

anyway back to school
today i sort of have a chance to get closer to the "guy" i like ==
well... not that i really like him,
i just amire him coz of his drawing xD
his drawing is pretty awsome xD

Look~! Look~!





















all above is his drawing, and it's pretty cool rite? :D
it's pretty sad i can't draw that nice T_T!!!

hahaha... ^^
erm... anyway.. i not sure about this la..
but my fren say he like me...? (what...? o.O)
NOT to say i wanna perasan say that 'oh really arr, he likes me???'
or like 'OMG really he like me arr?'
lol but still i'm just curios only la..

and there's a another guy which is
my best fren's fren name benji (benjimine)
well.. we met once.. JUST once...

but the "WAY" he did in the party it's PRETTY weird =="'

ok here's how it gose...

few weeks ago my best fren debra aka elektra have a christmas party
so she invited me to go lor~
well she also got invite some of my schools fren which is Jay and Nigel la~

well... she also invited her old cheras fren: Benjimine and Peter to come join the party la..o.0
1st we didn't chat at all
coz we don't noe each other so i only like
'Hi! my name is Zen' that's all i said...
so we keep dancing in the party and we had lots of fun~
weeeeeeee~

ok so it's was quite late already so mostly all debra frens go back home le lor~
so only left me,deb,jay,pet and benji at the place which we call it "the JAIL Room" (LoL swt~ XD)
so ok we have a chitchat and we drink beer in the "Jail" room
while debra is laying on pet(peter)
and just so suddenly, benji just put the hand AROUND me and "hugging" me like as if i was his teddy O[]O!!!
ok it's really shy to say la
i thought he was either drunk or just playing so i don't care la
hahahahaha xD

anyway.. ok..
he put his hand around me, i felt abit awful to let him put his hand over me ==
i also felt canna stun btw...
and i started to get the weird feeling ==
i was blushing atm already...
and i felt very WEIRD~!!!! @[]@!!!
(holy sh-- =="')

so we have a VERY long chat in the room until its almost about 3a.m
because benji was started to get abit tired
(but i think he's drunk... ._.''')
so we went in to the living room and watch movie =="'
and that's where the Most WEIRD Part begin ==

ok we sit on the sofa, well
there's only left one sit in the sofa so benji sat on it
and i sat on a small square chair.. (LoL..)

ok he was sitting next to timmy(jay's small brother)
so he ask tim to sit on the hand lifter
timmy move... so.. there it gose~
a empty place remain again XP
he keep asking me to sit on it but i say nevermine =/
but still in the end i still sat on the sofa..

ok, i was about to sit on the tip of the sofa..
BUT benji when and PULL me down, ALL the WAY back...
and LAY down on me X[]X!!!
not really laying down on me la but on my shoulder ==
and he was just laying down and fall a sleep (must be drunk liao = =zZZ)

at the moment... i was a totaly blushing already... = =!!!
(OMG OMG OMG!!!! @[]@!!!!)

okie.. erm... does anyone EVER slept on you thigh?
coz... he DID!!!!
he SLEPT on my thigh as if it was a pillow~!!! @[]@!!!
and yet... he's the 1ST person who ever slept on my thigh!! (OMG!!!!!)
i was been stun by that moment with my mind empty

but later on he just woke up and continue sleeping on another sofa..
i feel canna disappointed la...
you noe.. sad.. :'( lol!!

it was almost 4.30a.m, jay and his family is about to leave and
becoz i have no transport so i have to tag along going back~

i can actually walk back home de
but becoz it's soooooooo late at night and i'm a gal so...
i can't T_T

i was a lil sad coz i wanted to stay longer de but cannot T_T
after i say bye to debra, benji and pet
i just pop up into jay's car and his dad ride me back home T_T
i was being sad after i reach at home T_T sigh...
but dunno y i started to feel something for YOU-NOE-WHO... (OMG... =="')

so ok now that u noe the WHOL3 story..
here's a question for you...

DO u think he likes me?

i DON'T wanna perasan saying that he likes me la...
Is true that i... u noe "'= 3=
but some how debra's maid - Nikki told me that he likes me..... o.O
i started to felt weird all over it ==

not too sure i should believe it or just leave it ==
aiyo... so confuse la ==

but seriously la...

all the love and couple thingy in LOVE life is really so confuse and weird and i really don't understand them...

ARGH!!!!!!!!! T_T!!!


.........


may be i should just leave it and pretand that nothing heappen..

i'm really really really don't understand what does the word "LOVE" mean...

what dose "Love" realy mean???

can any one tell me? :(

..... sigh... .....

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